i feel a lot of anger inside me. i feel angry at my parents, at colleagues, at "friends", at people in general. i don't feel like this all the time, but at times, when i have to deal with the results of their doings, i feel angry when they think it is my fault, when they don't listen to what i say, when they pass a sarcastic comment, when they copy me, when they make feel used, when they behave in a selfish manner.
i regret doing things that i did in the past because i was a dedicated employee, because i was TRYING to be a good daughter, a good friend.
now, i don't want any interference, i don't want to make any friends, any relationships. i don't want to be a great employee. i just want to give my 200% for my dream job. after that i think that AT LEAST from career perspective i will be happy or satisfied.
i want to be at peace while preparing, i don't want minor things to ruin my balance. i want to be peace.
i will be an RBI GRADE B officer in 2024.
